If I Ain't Got You...

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I Love you!
From A Walk To Remember
Landon: Can you find this star, right here?
Jamie: Sure. So why am I looking for this star?
Landon: Because I had it named for you. See?
It's official. It's from the International Star Registry.
Jamie: This is wonderful... I love you.

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Wednesday, May 05, 2004

STRAWBERRY BANANA SPLIT MCFLURRY

I have only tasted this twice.The first time it was love at first taste. It was like I've tasted the best dessert ever invented. Suddenly Mcdonald's didn't seem like your everyday fastfood. It was like I was in a five star restaurant wearing a beautiful gown or dress. I felt like a princess being waited on. Oh such rubbish!

Just a few minutes ago I had a burger and fries for lunch...and I made sure to buy a Strawberry Banana Split Mcflurry with it. I have been thinking about it eversince the first time. I've been longing to taste it once again... to feel its texture on my tongue and savor its sweetness. Just like along lost friend or a childhood crush I missed it so much and was eagerly awaiting for the moment to have it appeal to my senses once again.

But to my disappointment it just didn't taste the same. Yes it is still sweet ...tasting like banana and bubblegum in one. But it just wasn't special anymore. It was mediocre. I am reminded of why it is being served at Mcdonald's and not a fancy restaurant. It tasted like a science experiment..alittle bit of this and a little bit of that and you get a C...almost like failing it.

Something was definitely amiss...or someone was amiss. I realized what it was and it makes me think that perhaps even if served panna cotta from Bellini's I would not be satisfied. For some reason it was you that made the difference. Your lovely gaze from across the table with the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen. I actually thought you were wearing a pair of contact lens...that's how amazing your eyes are to me. Your lips so healthy and reddish...like a fresh tomato from somebody's backyard. Its shape... just right. And to think that I have kissed those lips...to remember that I was once held and loved by you.
Not having you makes an otherwise amazing thing seem less appealing to me. Don't ask me why...please don't. Just know and accept that to me you defy perfection. I love you and that's all there is to it.

Moonflower bloomed at 1:49 PM }

Monday, May 03, 2004

A LETTER TO MY BOO

Dear boo,

As I write this I am in tears again ( not that it matters) because I thought I had it all figured out. I thought I knew what you wanted and I tried to give it the best way I could. I didn't want to leave your side because I remember you worrying I would leave you alone. What I didn't expect was you asking me why I kept on following you and doubting you. We were barely together for a week and of course I would think that at that point we were still establishing our relationship and our bond. How could you have grown tired of me easily? I guess I know the answer to the question. It is just that it isn't easy dealing with it , you know. I tried you know but how can I trust you when we didn't have anything to build our trust on? I would come to you in order to strike a conversation and you'd sit there quietly and would say nothing. You'd say you are not thinking of anything but I could sense it.

There's really no point in going about this over and over but I have to. I have to go through with this, you know? But I will get over you somehow. After all I made the decision to break it up. You were saying you'd think about it first but I didn't want it because I knew you were just delaying or avoiding it. That's why as much as it hurts I broke up with you. I was hoping you'd say you'd rather think about it but you didn't . I have never broken up with anyone before because I feel it is difficult to say it out loud and I don't know if I can do such a thing to someone who has become a part of my life. I might not be that emotionally strong. But I did it with you...break up though my heart was shouting NO! It's all for the better, though. That's what friends tell me and I know so. I am not seeing it right now because of how hurt I am but I will get there and be able to gently accept that we were never meant to be.

You are still young and I know in time you will grow up to be a fine man. Be happy and don't settle for anything less than what you deserve. You owe it to no one but yourself.

I LOVE YOU STILL.

Moonflower bloomed at 4:29 PM }